Things have changed.
Since February my life has been a whirlwind of debt, emotion, unknown, and endless anxiety and I think I am now getting to the point where I can breathe in deeply and know that at the end of the day I'll be ok.
My weight doesn't matter.
The way my hair looks doesn't matter.
What phone I have doesn't matter...
And I'm ok with that.
I want to know that someone out in the world loves me and wants me to be happy and supports me no matter what.
And I have that.
I feel like a dumbass and the luckiest girl in the world all in the same heartbeat.
I can't believe it took so long for me to realize what matters.
I may be young and naive and a whole bunch of other things but I want to know why the world we live in today doesn't straight up and tell you that
NONE OF IT MATTERS
It's knowing who you are as a human being,
Being able to love, support and cherish the people in your life in the moments you spend with them.
Society can tell you a million things about yourself but none of them are true because they have no idea who they themselves have become...
(I digress, society is a whole other monster...)
I'm just so sad and elated in the becoming of who I am and want to be.
I'm sad because it didn't happen sooner, but I think it's because I wasn't ready.
At this point in my life I've seen such few things that I cherish every day things more than most.
And that's ok, most people never cherish the little things until they're gone any way.
*Random Post*
I'll be back Blogger Buds.
Since February my life has been a whirlwind of debt, emotion, unknown, and endless anxiety and I think I am now getting to the point where I can breathe in deeply and know that at the end of the day I'll be ok.
My weight doesn't matter.
The way my hair looks doesn't matter.
What phone I have doesn't matter...
And I'm ok with that.
I want to know that someone out in the world loves me and wants me to be happy and supports me no matter what.
And I have that.
I feel like a dumbass and the luckiest girl in the world all in the same heartbeat.
I can't believe it took so long for me to realize what matters.
I may be young and naive and a whole bunch of other things but I want to know why the world we live in today doesn't straight up and tell you that
NONE OF IT MATTERS
It's knowing who you are as a human being,
Being able to love, support and cherish the people in your life in the moments you spend with them.
Society can tell you a million things about yourself but none of them are true because they have no idea who they themselves have become...
(I digress, society is a whole other monster...)
I'm just so sad and elated in the becoming of who I am and want to be.
I'm sad because it didn't happen sooner, but I think it's because I wasn't ready.
At this point in my life I've seen such few things that I cherish every day things more than most.
And that's ok, most people never cherish the little things until they're gone any way.
*Random Post*
I'll be back Blogger Buds.
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